Saturday, June 13, 2009

Update



As you all know I haven’t been here in a while. To be honest… I didn’t feel like turning on the computer, writing on my blog, checking my email, I didn’t sign in the msn or facebook. I didn’t feel like talking to anyone, I cancelled many invitations to go out and didn’t call my friends for a while. I drifted into reading and thinking. I was thinking so much but I couldn’t write anything, thinking about so much crap that didn’t make any sense. It might be because for a while I have been jobless, and I can’t work until I solve some issues but this might take about 6 to 8 months. Oddly enough I was not bored because even though I am not working, I am doing a lot of things such as taking care of a family member that is ill, pretty much this occupied most of my day.

When it was time for me to relax, I wasn’t interested in doing things that once were pleasurable to do. I don’t feel I was depressed because I wasn’t sad…. who knows, maybe it was some kind of depression.

At the same time, I discovered the Twilight series… and I love them! I remember when I went to see the movie Twilight; I thought we were going to get kicked out of the movie theater because my friend and I couldn’t stop laughing thinking on how corny the story was… Until I read the book, OMG I totally felt in love with Edward Cullen. I devoured the 1st book in 2 days and the 2nd book in one day. I am currently on the 3rd book but taking it slow because I am approaching the last book and I don’t want it to end! I know how silly it sounds; I never thought that I was going to have dreams about Edward Cullen. I am just hoping that Midnight Sun would come out soon (Edward’s point of view.)

Anyhow, this Friday I resolved to say yes to an invitation to hang out with a couple of friends and decided that it was time to step out of that “daze”. I am overwhelm by the messages that some of you left (especially on 20somethingbloggers.)
I couldn’t help but to feel touched by your concerns and the much love that was received. Thank you, it means a lot to me. I probably would never meet most of you but to know that I have made many good friends through this medium makes me feel that I have incredible amounts of support. As my inner ghetto-fabulous girl would say “you got my back, on citas”!

5 comments:

Andrea said...

Awww good to have you back. *squeeue* lol

Btw. I completely know how it feels to think too much that you just can't write anything.

Ed Ngai said...

haha missed ya! can't believe you have turned into a reclusive bookworm while you were gone! :P

I know how you feel about not wanting to blog because i am going through that atm...

.beee. said...

YAY! Another Twilight obsessed being, hah! It's hard NOT to love those books :)

Glad you're back!

XO
.beee.

Andrea said...

A lil' sumthin sumthin here --> http://kittydesignes.blogspot.com :)

Shania said...

Thank you all for your messages!

 

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