Tuesday, December 22, 2009


There are times that I want to be reckless. There are times that I'm mad at the world. Times that I want to punch people in face for no apparent reason. To act now and think later or better yet, not to think at all.

I want to be angry because I have a reason....
Because I think I have a valid reason....'
Or because I don't have a reason

I just wanna be mad

Some people would say that there is a reason for my anger
and I think there is but today I don't want to analyze anything
Logic has no business here

I just wanna be mad

Don't wanna think about that crap that I always preach "Everything happens for a reason" Bullshit!

Today, Shit happens cause that's the mothafucken life!
Wish I can blame someone but my stupid conscious speaks and says "that's not fair, don't lay blame"

Wish I can be the victim and say "Oh, It wasn't my fault, I was helpless" but lady honesty says "that's not true, you knew better"

Wish I can say " All it's lost, we are all fucken doomed.Let's just stand here and wait for chaos to arrive"

But inopportune lady hope says "Don't give up, you can change it"

Fuck! What to do?

I want to be mad

Mad for a reason or for no reason

But those three bitches speak their mind.


underOvr (aka The U) said...

Hi Shania,

I think there are times when each of us experience something that triggers our emotions and causes our anger to be released. Anger is a strong emotion. Being able to recognize anger is good but understanding how to handle that anger determines how healthy the experience will be.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you!


Gerry Boyd said...

Go for it! You'll feel much better. Anger swallowed comes back in other ways.

BDigi7 said...

damn where you been at?!?

Anonymous said...

There's nothing wrong with feeling mad Shania!
I suppose its how we let it out which can become a way in which we get judged? Also, can we live with the guilt if it hurts someone...unless they deserve it? Naughty me! In a weird way, writing like this can help me get my mad and bad side out!!
Nice to have you back to!

AlenaRosa said...

Hence the human condition. We cant be happy all the time one of my favorite authors said some people never go crazy what truly horrible lives they must live <3 thanks for the Holiday Wishes same to you babycakes.

Faker said...

Howdy stranger!
Happy new year!

To be honest I don't relate to this post. I consider myself quite care free so nothing really makes me angry or to correctly put it takes a lot to get me mad. I think its something I have been raised to be. I have never held a grudge against someone for more than a day.

Hope you haven't forgotten me! :)

Shania said...

U: I'm working on this... because many times I keep my feelings and opinions to myself and one day I just explode.. I really have to work on this

Gerry Boyd: Yes, that's exactly what happened... LOL well, at least it was on a blog.

BDIGI7: Hey buddy!! well, I been busy doing??? I dont remember what I been doing.... Did you get my email?

Green fingers: You know actually I don't like to get mad cause I feel weak.. like why am I not able to control myself? you know what I mean? But I suppose it was a healthier way to write my feelings on a blog than to act on it.

Unless they deserve it? LOL good question it all depends... how pissed off I'm..

AlenaRosa: Hey girly! Loved that quote.. who wrote it? I guess I'll research on that..

Faker: Hey STRANGER! It's been like ages! Well lucky you!! Yeah I get mad all the time but see I'm not the kind of person that hold grudges... it's actually kind of psychotic lol get mad at you one day the next day I'm asking you if we still on for lunch lol.

Thank you all for your comments, love them it makes me feel like i'm not talking to myself (which I do sometimes but make sure no one's looking) Love you all best wishes for this year!!

Super huge hug and kisses to all of you!!!

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