It was probably about 6:00 PM and I was sleepy so I decided to go back home to check if Moe maybe had already come down from his high. I opened the door and there was Marven, Loizo, Moe and other friends. I greeted everyone there and of course I thought I would not be able to sleep as it is a studio and there are no doors or privacy whatsoever. They were smoking weed and invited me by asking if I wanted a hit. I didn’t feel like smoking, but didn’t want to be the "party pooper," so I started smoking weed. Everything was so peaceful; I was so relaxed. I was laughing and having such a good time. I was happy. I don’t know when everybody else left, but it was only me and Marvin left. We were watching tv and talking crap. Everything was right but then I started to talk about him…..
I guess Marven was getting bored of me talking about Piercedtongue because he said he needed to go home. He probably thought that I was such a buzz killer. I started getting ready to go to bed when Moe came back and asked me if I was going anywhere. I asked, why? "Ohh, cuz I met this chick and I kind of want to be with her for a bit. Can I ask you to comeback in a couple of hours? After this I am going out and you can comeback." I agreed. After all it was his place and I understood that he wanted to be alone. I rushed to get my things and left.
Once again I am outside not knowing where to go. It was like 9 PM. I walked and sat by the park, but left because there were a few guys and I was getting scared. Finally 11 PM and I decided that I was gonna go back. I went back and noticed that I did not have my key. I knocked and knocked but there was no one. Moe had left... fuck!!! I am so screwed! I waited for Moe for an hour, but sometimes I wont see Moe for weeks...shit! I started walking towards Sasha's place. Maybe I can just ask her to let me stay this time. I was too exhausted to do anything else. I went to her place but right before I knocked on the door I heard her husband and her arguing in Russian. Oh no!! I cant ask her now! I went to the highest floor at her apartment building. I was too weak and tired to go anywhere, so I slept in the stairwell, where I thought there was no traffic.
I thought about calling my mom and just tell her to take me back this time. I know that if I would've told her my situation she would take me back, but she would remind me about this for the rest of my life. No I can't do this, I have to suck it up. I have to manage and I cant ask for help. I got myself into this mess and I have to get out by myself. I cant let no one know what I am going through.
I woke up around 7 AM and I had to leave before some one saw me. I went back to Moe's place and hoped that he was there. He opened the door and asked me where I had been. I told him I forgot my key and that I was at Sasha’s. He went back to his bed and as I was still tired I went to sleep to my bed. I know, so awkward both of us sleeping in the same room, but I did not care was too I worn out
