Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make. You can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won’t know for twenty years! And you may never ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce…

And they say there’s no fate, but there is, it’s what you create. And even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead, or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain wasting years for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right, but it never comes. Or it seems to, but it doesn’t really.

So you spend you time in vague regret or vaguer hope that something good will come along, something to make you feel connected, something to make you feel cherished, something to make you feel loved. And the truth is is, I feel so angry! And the truth is, I feel so fucking sad! And the truth is, I’ve felt so fucking hurt for so fucking long and for just as long, I’ve been pretending I’m okay, just to get along!

I don’t know why. Maybe because…no one wants to hear about my misery…because they have their own.

Synecdoche NY

Do you realize?

Do You Realize?

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize - we're floating in space -
Do You Realize - that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize - that everyone you know someday will die

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - Oh - Oh - Oh
Do You Realize - that everyone you know
Someday will die -

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize

When Sad...... Dance!

Hey everyone... I hope everyone had great holidays and all the best for this new year.


Sometimes I whish I could be like this man.... Just to dance and not care what other people think...

Mad

There are times that I want to be reckless. There are times that I'm mad at the world. Times that I want to punch people in face for no apparent reason. To act now and think later or better yet, not to think at all.

I want to be angry because I have a reason....
Because I think I have a valid reason....'
Or because I don't have a reason

I just wanna be mad


Some people would say that there is a reason for my anger
and I think there is but today I don't want to analyze anything
Logic has no business here

I just wanna be mad

Don't wanna think about that crap that I always preach "Everything happens for a reason" Bullshit!

Today, Shit happens cause that's the mothafucken life!
Wish I can blame someone but my stupid conscious speaks and says "that's not fair, don't lay blame"

Wish I can be the victim and say "Oh, It wasn't my fault, I was helpless" but lady honesty says "that's not true, you knew better"

Wish I can say " All it's lost, we are all fucken doomed.Let's just stand here and wait for chaos to arrive"

But inopportune lady hope says "Don't give up, you can change it"

Fuck! What to do?

I want to be mad

Mad for a reason or for no reason

But those three bitches speak their mind.

Update

Hey guys!

Just wanted to briefly give you guys an update.... I don't know when will be the next time I'll be able to be here because my laptop is not working and I don't know when I'll be able to repair it. Hopefully I can retrieve all my documents from it. What a pain, finally when I was ready to start writing this happend. Well, I am kinda of upset about it but what can I do. I'll try to use the computers from a internet cafe but they are really far from where I live, so I dont know when will i'll be able to do that but I want to thank everybody that left messages "thanks I'really apreciate it" Greenfingers: thanks for the message and will definetly check out the movies that you recommended, BTW beautiful Poem(on your blog) I wanted to comment but I only have 5 min (I'm on a public library computer). U,Marina Soffer, Alpha B,Valerie: Thanks for your comments.

Love,

Shania

The Rules For Being Human

1. You will receive a body
You may like it or hate it, but it will be yours for the entire period of this time around.

2. You will learn lessons
You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called life. Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or think them irrelevant and stupid.

3. There are no mistakes, only lessons
Growth is a process of trial and error: Experimentation. The "failed" experiment that ultimately "works."

4. A lesson is repeated until learned
A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can then go on to the next lesson.

5. Learning lessons does not end
There is no part of life that does not contain its lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.

6. "There" is no better than "here"
When your "there" has become a "here," you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."

7. Others are merely mirrors of you
You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.

8. What you make of your life is up to you
You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

9. Your answers lie inside you
The answers to life's questions lie inside you. All you need to do is look, listen and trust.

10. You will forget all this

Cherie Carter-Scott

The best foreign movies I've ever seen

Wow, I can’t believe it took me close to two months to post another entry. I had a very busy and fun summer (wish I could say it was productive) but I enjoyed it none of the less. Ok, so here is my list of best foreign movies. I am also posting the links so that you can enjoy them as well but for better video quality, go to a video rental store.

Malena (2000 Italy)

On the day in 1940 that Italy enters the war, two things happen to the 12-year-old Renato: he gets his first bike, and he gets his first look at Malèna. She is a beautiful, silent outsider who's moved to this Sicilian town to be with her husband, Nico. He promptly goes off to war, leaving her to the lustful eyes of the men and the sharp tongues of the women. During the next few years, as Renato grows toward manhood, he watches Malèna suffer and prove her mettle. He sees her loneliness, then grief when Nico is reported dead, the effects of slander on her relationship with her father, her poverty and search for work, and final humiliations.

Icouldn't find a decent link but you can http://www.watch-movies-links.net/movies/malena/

Pan's labyrinth (2006 Mexico/Spain)

In 1944 fascist Spain, a girl, fascinated with fairy-tales, is sent along with her pregnant mother to live with her new stepfather, a ruthless captain of the Spanish army. During the night, she meets a fairy who takes her to an old faun in the center of the labyrinth. He tells her she's a princess, but must prove her royalty by surviving three gruesome tasks. If she fails, she will never prove herself to be the true princess and will never see her real father, the king, again.

I couldn't find a reliable link for this film but you can check out www.ovguide.com,perhaps you might have better luck.

Tell no one ( 2006 France)

The pediatrician Alexandre Beck misses his beloved wife Margot Beck, who was brutally murdered eight years ago when he was the prime suspect. When two bodies are found near where the corpse of Margot was dumped, the police reopen the case and Alex becomes suspect again. The mystery increases when Alex receives an e-mail showing Margot older and alive.

Lilja 4-ever (2000 Russia, Sweden, Denmmark)

In the former Soviet Union, sixteen year old Lilja is very happy, because her mother is moving to the USA with her boyfriend. However, Lilja is left alone, without money or family in a very poor apartment. She spends her time with her only friend, the rejected boy Volodya. Lilja begins to prostitute in a nightclub to survive, and she meets a young man, Andrei, who seduces her and invites Lilja to move with him to Sweden with a promise of a job and lodging. When she arrives in Sweden, reality is not exactly as dreamed.

Orphanage (2007 Mexico-Spain)

The former orphan Laura raises her adopted son Simón with her husband Carlos in an old house and former orphanage where she was raised. Simón is HIV positive and tells Laura that he has five invisible friends, and she believes they are fruit of his imagination. Laura decides to reopen an orphanage for handicapped children in the location and during the opening party, Simón calls her to show the little cabin of his friend Tomás. The busy Laura does not gives much attention to her son; then she sees a mysterious masked boy and Simón vanishes. Laura feels the presence of other persons in the house and months later, the desperate Laura invites a team of parapsychologists to try to unravel the mystery.

As times goes on I hope that my list of “The best foreign movies I’ve ever seen” keeps growing and be sure that I will share them with you. All these films are a must and would love to hear your thoughts once you watch them.

*Megavideo will interrupt you after 72 minutes and will ask you to come back in 52 minutes.